The Lovely Ole Days of Summer

Man, do I love the summer. Then again, I'm a southern boy and I love hot weather. I guess that's why I'm not living in the North East of Chicago, but man do things get crazy around here.

If anybody didn't know, and to be perfectly honest, I don't think anyone does. I don't think anyone reads this damn blog. I work at a pretty popular Convention Hotel here in San Diego as a security officer. I work the graveyard shift, and let's just say I've seen my fair share of crazy stuff. That being said I'm so glad I was off last Friday. Having a murder/suicide will do that to a person. All the crazy stuff in this hotel happens in the summer. I mean drunk people everywhere. Couples trying to fuck all over the hotel. That place is like the funhouse. It makes for a fun place to work at times. It can also make for some very tiring nights. The bad part is I'm starting to think that what one of my co-workers said is true. "Rich people are just as stupid as everyone else. They can just afford to be dumb."

Am I being Tricked?

Wow, it has been a while since I've written anything in this blog. I guess I should start with one of my favorite topics. My friend the security.

Sometimes I really don't what to think about this guy, and I really hate it that's he's gotten into my head so badly. I had actually forgotten about him for quite a while. Then again, that is really easy to do when you hardly see the person. Then again I've been kind of busy, so I've other things to worry about.

Now nothing has really changed, except to say that he has kind of backed off of his creepy staring routine. That basically means that he's gotten a lot more sneaky about it and doesn't do it where everyone on the fucking planet can see him. He still does it though, smiling and whoa what a beautiful smile.

Of course my friend Victor seems to think that he's just playing games and is in fact actually straight. It is possible and it is something that has actually crossed my mind on a few occasions. The problem is that above all else I believe in logic. I also believe in the least complex explanation is the most likely thing. Wait isn't that logic? Anyway, no matter how I try to reason it, the fact that he might be tricking me doesn't make any damn sense. First off, he would get nothing out of it especially since I haven't even spoken to him. Then again, if he is a true pyscho he wouldn't need much of a reason now would he? Then the one thing was why would he did he let me and Angie know that he had heard our conversation in the first place. I mean he really went out of his way to do so. Weird.

It all makes me uncomfortable. As I said before, it totally drives me UP THE FUCKING WALL that he is in my head like this. Then again, for him to be doing all this means that I'm in his head just as much. The question is why am I in his head. Well I guess only time will tell. Hopefully.

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Non-Titled Rant

Wow! I've been reading my own post in this blog and I just realized how much of a toal jackass I must sound with some of the things that I've said. I mean I know I'm not the best looking guy with the perfect body out there. And god knows that I do have my fair share of flaws. Those things were just what I was thinking at the time. Well, I shouldn't say at the time because I my views on those things haven't changed. I guess maybe they seem a lot nastier in print then they did when I actually was thinking it. I don't know. It just that I've always lived by the thought that you have to give respect in order to get. I don't know if I disrespected anyone or not, but this blog is basically a vent place to me. A lot of it may sound funny but maybe that's how i deal with things that bother me.

I'm almost 31 y/o now. Maybe it's that I'm growing up. Then again I don't think that's it. I don't know....I'm not going to stop this though. I'll keep doing it. Maybe it'll help me be more self-aware. God knows that all of us could probably use that

Busy, Busy, Busy

Damn, I haven't put anything here in a while. That could be because my life is so damn boring at the moment that there isn't anything that I would even remotely want to write about and not have worries of putting everyone to sleep. It could also be because I've been just too damn busy.

Let's see since I've last written anything, I've been a best man in a wedding, and I've started a new job. The new job just makes me tired because I work graveyard shifts. The wedding thing...well. Let's just say that the bride actually told my buddy that when she first met me that she wanted to hookup with me (and they were dating at the time I met her), and that she still fantasize about me while they are having sex. Now, anybody can figure out why that might be a bad idea. The fact that they decided that I should know this was even worse. Now....I'm a gay man who actually likes straight porn, but even the thought of the two of them having sex really makes my stomach turn. I think that's because even I was attracted to women, I wouldn't be the least bit attracted to her. Then there are other reasons being that I know how she is as a person.

High maintenance doesn't even describe it. I've never met a person who is more irresponsible and refuses to grow up. She has a six year old daughter who is a very beautiful girl, and her daughter is more grown up then she is. Plus she'll tell a lie at the drop of a hat. (Anyone who has read my blog knows how much I hate liars). That's really bad when you're a very bad liar. Basically she making my buddies life hell, and I kind of hate her for it. I hate to see my buddy hurting all the time.

He refuses to do anything about it though....which I don't understand even more.

Check On It!

This is really starting to get really strange. I'm starting to see how sneaky this guy really is. Then again it's really hard to be sneaky when I'm really waiting for him to revert back to his old ways. I didn't have too wait long. Yesterday, I caught the guy looking around for me. LOOKING FOR ME! This is basically because Angie alerted the guy to my presence. It's actually quite funny watching the guys head move around real quick trying to find me, and when he finally does, he's finds me looking right at him with the biggest smirk on my face(basically saying "yeah, big boy, you've been caught red handed). Then he just looks away really quickly and stares at the floor. It was freakin awesome. It's true. I do get easily amused at times. This is the first time I've gotten the one up on him in a long time, and it's all basically because he wasn't paying attention when I passed him in the first place. Maybe that was because he was actually WORKING. I know it's a novel concept when it comes to him.

The thing is that no matter how much he tries to get people to think that he's a homophobe, Beyonce's song "Check On it" basically describes how I'm treating him right now. If you haven't heard that song you should take a listen. I know he likes what he see's. It's also known to just about everyone who knows what going on that he wants a taste, but I'm making him chase it for a while, only because he's being so silly. I know that it's kind of a screwed up thing to do but, he's kind of deserved it after some of the shit that he's done. A lot of which I haven't mentioned because this damn blog is long enough as it is.

I said before that I was willing to play games just as much as he is. And I haven't even started yet. I just hope that he checks on it soon because as I've said before, I don't like playing games, and I've got the feeling that I'm going to bore of this really quickly.

"No, I'm Not Gay. I'm Homophobic"

You would think this whole thing is over by now. Obviously it isn't. You would think that since this security guard now knows that I know that he's been watching me to the point of being creepy, he might do the sensible thing and like quit. Well know he hasn't. Actually, he's gotten a lot more sneakier about it. It's almost like he is trying to get my attention. He's always had it. It's just that if you want to say something to me, then SAY IT ALREADY.

Of course now he's being extremely nice to my two best friends, Angie and Victor. Victor is the one who I mentioned before that tries to embarass me around this guy whenever he gets the opportunity. Well the table has turned on that last night. For once, I got to watch Victor stick his whole leg all the way up to his ass in his mouth, and my security guard buddy heard every word of it. I think he seems to position himself where he can listen to my conversations without making himself known. Well, the not making himself known thing is obviously not working. We always seem to catch him. Not that it matters. The three of us have gotten to the point where we don't really care if he hears us or not. If we are actually talking about him, which is quite frequently now days, we actually talk louder to let him get his earful that he seems to be working so hard.

Of course some other female did the really dumb thing and asked him if he was gay (and no, that was not my idea). His response "No I'm not gay. I'm homophobic" Now first off who actually refers to themselves as homophobic. Even real homophobic people don't call themselves that! Now add to the fact that he isn't acting like a homophobic person at all means that response doesn't make any sense. Now if he is homophobic, he would be trying to stay away from me. Which he doesn't at all seem to be doing. In fact, he's doing the exact opposite. Even today, just an hour ago, he was trying to get my attention when he was talking to another neighbor.

But he's homophobic! Geez!!!