Co-dependency Is Never A Good Thing

Sometimes you just have to know when to draw the line. Alcoholism is a nasty thing. What makes it worse is that the alcoholic usually ends up effecting other people with what their doing. Usually that person is their friends.

Let's just say that I have a friend who is driving the rest of us a little nuts. Everyday it's the same thing. The problem is that like most alcoholics he's the greatest guy when he is sober. The problem is that we can never tell when that is. He's extremely hard to talk to, and he's gotten to the point of asking us to do everything. It's like we're his maid's. He sneaks it and he's already lost his boyfriend because of it. It's a total mess.

Of course, I'm 29 years old and the last thing I want to do is to babysit a 32 year old man, so I basically had to tell him that we won't be talking to each other anymore. It hurts me dearly, but I had to do it. I have way too many other things going on in my life at the moment to have to deal with that. Besides, I've done everything that I can do minus live his life for him. He needs to learn to make his own mistakes and paying the consequences for actions that he creates. He's always had someone who was willing do that for him. I'm definitely not that person.

Why can't I make normal friends?

Irritating!!!

Damn, I can't stand it when people don't respect boundaries. Want an example? Here's a boundary: "We're just friends, and I don't want people to think that we are dating." There's also a this incident when a person, after asking the two us in presence of each other if we were dating and we both answer no, ask if we are going to start dating in the future and I say NO. That would kind of make things a litle clear right. How about if you say I love you so much, and I don't respond back about how I feel, but instead I say "I know." Then there is when I tell you I like someone else and I continually tell you why I like this guy so much. Maybe it is when I become increasingly uncomfortable in your presence since the day we met, and I was uncomfortable then. I don't know. It could be when I flinch whenever you touch me, or when you hug me and I don't hug back. How about when I say I don't know what I'm doing the next day just so that you don't latch on to me like a puppy and follow me around everywhere (which if you were my dog I wouldn't mind). Lastly, when you call me baby and I visibly cringe.

CAN I MAKE IT ANYMORE F*@KING CLEARER FOR YOU?

Yes, I have a person like that. No matter how much I make it clear to him that we are only friends, he keeps putting me in really uncomfortable positions. I driving me freaking nuts. I still want to be friends with this person. I've was blunt and to the point that we are just friends. I don't know what to do.

Believe it or not that's not the only irritating thing that has happened this week. I'll leave it at that.

Real Dilema!

Okay, I met a guy last night. He's from TN which means he's from near my hometown. He's hot as hell, and has a sex drive that I would probably need to keep my silly ass satisfied. He's a redneck, and his idea of telling me how much he wants me is telling me that he wants to be my baby's daddy. Now, I know that sounds really vile, especially for a guy to say to another guy, but I thought it was cute. Maybe it is because I was born and kind of raised in the South. I kinda have an idea how a southern redneck thinks. Besides, he also said that he really wanted to date a guy like me and that he would hold me alnight. That doesn't excatly sound like something most peple would think would come from a redneck

So what's the dilema. Well read my last post. Troy! The hot personal trainer who treats me like I was king of his world! These two guys both live in the same part of the country, albiet not excatly within a three hundred mile radius of each other. Still they are closer to each other then they are to me.

What the hell am I talking about. I've know Troy for four months now. I've only know Chad for a grand total of twenty-six hours. I know one way more than the other. Still I have a feeling that I will probably get to know Chad a little better in the next few months. The fact that he lives near my hometown means that I will be a lot closer to him than Troy whenever I fly to Nashville. Which means that I have more opportunites to see Chad than Troy. This could get interesting.

Let's see what happens!

Dilema!

Reasons Why I Am So Into Troy:

1. He's hot as hell (I mean totally on fire)
2. He's nice and kind
3. He's Intelligent
4. He's romantic at heart
5. He treats me like I'm the best (an added bonus)
6. We actually have a lot in common.
7. Has a great sense of humor.
8. He actually isn't scared to date a guy.

Any Drawback:

1. He's on the Damn East Coast!


Okay that is not much of a dilema. You've gotta admit that his being on the east coast is a little problematic. Especially since the things I want to do with the guy means that we basically have to be in a two foot radius of each other. Oh well, I'd better figure something out fast. I really don't want this one to get away.

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