The Stood-Up Factor

Okay...here is a reason as to why i am still single. I keep getting stood up all the damn time. Is this a gay thing.? I know tht sounds crass, but I'm pretty peeved. Do we as a whole like to stand guys up? I don't get it. It's just freaking rude when someone tells you to call them at a certain time to meet for a date. I call you at that time and you don't answer your phone. It's not even turned on. Oh yeah...you know it's a cell phone just by the message, and the fact that it isn't turned on because it doesn't even ring. That is just so....oh never mind.

As you can tell that REALLY irritates me. I'm a southern boy and I was brought up with manners. This just shows that some people have no home training. Actually I don't even know if that's being stood up. It's just WRONG. That was my day off and I deliberately didn't plan anything because of this. The thing is I really can't get mad at the the guy. I haven't been really fair with him. On the other hand I've always been available when I told him to call me at a certain time too. It's really one of those things where I want to be mad but I can't. It doesn't matter I'm still mad anyway. Oh well...at least I have class now to make me forget about it.

Liar, Liar!

Jeez this is becoming to much of a pain. Don't I have anything good to write about in this damn thing. Maybe, I'm just going through some bad faze or something.

You know what I said about making normal friends. Well here's another one.

Everyone at some point lies. It happens. A lot of times it is forgivable or you can just blow it off. Especially if it is something that is really petty. I know that sometimes people lie to you for your own good. It still hurts, but it is usually forgiven.

There are are certain lies I can't take. When you're my friend, and you do it it is even worse. Especially when i know you've lied over the past two weeks many times. This particular lie was a lie about me. This lie started a lot of issues that wouldn't have happend had this person had kept there mouth shut. See it's the whole tell something that isn't true and then you lie about it. Especially if you are specifically asked by me if you said it. I wouldn't even had gotten mad if he had told me the truth. I wasn't mad when I had asked.

Still I had a suspicion that he had did it. I was able to comfirm that today. Which confirms the fact that he lied.

Don't let me see him today. He's going to get my left foot up his ass.

Why Am I Still Single?

To start this is not a bitch session where I suppose to feel sorry for myself. I know that is probably what it sounds like, but to be quite honest I don't do that a lot. The reason is because it is too time consuming and it takes up too much energy.

Actually, I tend to get asked that question a lot. Maybe it's time to do some thought about why I am still single. I can't even count the number of times I've been asked this question. It makes me feel like crap when I here igt because it makes me feel like something about me is wrong. I mean I have a guy who is around the corner and telling me that he want would love to be my boyfriend or whatever. Then I start to think whe can't that happend to me here. Why is it that in San Diego I'm still alone and frankly quite bored?

The answer is I don't have a damn clue. If I had an answer to that, I'm pretty sure that I would not still be single right now at this moment. There are many reasons this could be. I am kind of picky and I usually attract guys that I have nothing in commom with at all or are plain just not attracted to period. There was my navy days when I wasn't even looking for anything of the sort because I was too busy and never at home. Now...I don't know. I have been hurt a few times and it makes it really hard to trust people. I just try to take it one day at time. There are tons of reason why I'm still single and to just pick one and say that is the reason would be pretty damn dumb.

Besides I'm a little more complicated then that!